gosh, it's so hard. i didn't think that it would be so hard leaving all this behind. yesterday there was trouble.... with my best friend and my brother. not between them but between me and them. i just want to stay here, it's too hard, i don't think that i'm strong enough.
i'm doing the last things before we drive to the airport. i'm nervous, my tummy hurts, i feel terrible. it's a feeling i never had before. i'm just... so nervous, i don't know what i should expect.
M.
